Tuesday, July 9, 2013


Someone forced me to do this post because i was bugging her while she was doing some coloring stuff. Hence that is how this post is created.

Almost 6 months has passed and i was told to write about my discoveries in life. The biggest discovery for this year so far would be anxiety. I was in a really stressful situation where i have sleep deprivation, loss of appetite, headache which cause me to feel nauseous most of the time. I started to notice i have anxiety when i realized i cry constantly without any reason and having no control over my emotions. I can cry while i was busy typing and that was the most awkward moment in my entire life. Secondly, i realized i have problems in my breathing. I wasnt breathing properly and inhaling deeply is simply impossible at that time. Sometimes i was running out of breath till i have to calm myself down by calling someone. It was nasty. I even experienced anxiety attack where i faced massive work issues at one time. It happened in split seconds that i remember my heart started to beat so fast which cause me to gasp for air. 

I thought i was a sick person then but someone told me it is just a phase in life and i'll be fine if i stop thinking about the symptoms for anxiety. My friend told me that it is a common thing nowadays for all working woman to face anxiety and that makes me feel better. 

My advice when you have anxiety would be, call for help. Dont keep it to yourself. Share with anyone that you are comfortable with. It helps a lot. If you have no one that you can talk to, watch a comedy movie. It works like magic, trust me. Or you can take a walk or a jog,do an outdoor activity.

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life - Confucius

I managed to findout the meaning of the phrase above. For your information, i am currently having two jobs which is a procurement engineer in the morning and a barista at night. I keep wondering why do i come back to become a barista at night eventhough i have a morning job. Then i realized i  actually love to be a barista. I enjoy putting smiles on people's face and i enjoy making coffee. Hence i told myself, i wasnt really working at night. I am actually doing some activity that i enjoy doing. I think working is more like what you have to do whereas mine is more like what i want to do.
Do you get it?

This post ends now since i am under influenced LOL took a piriton and it starts to make me feel dizzy. I will create another post to write my achievements since "someone" wants me to include them. Im glad to write this. Keep tracking me, appreciate it much!