Sunday, December 30, 2012

CBTL Barista

that is my part time job. you probably think im demented for having 2 jobs. ahahaha! i thought the same too. i've been looking for a part time since i got my current job right now because i dont really enjoy myself at work with sitting in front of the computer and handle documents or sometimes just sit and doing nothing. hence i thought of doing a part time at a retail company because i've worked in Karen Millen Pavillion. however, there is one CBTL near to my work place and i thought of giving it at try to apply. the girl asked me to fill in the form and interview me straightaway and the next thing i know is
i am hired
it was a quick one
my first day was great. it went well. it was last thursday where i go straight after work, bestie was there to send me at my place and to buy something sweet. i have learnt to make the ice blended, but i still got confused. i think i will be able to master it all after a month without asking and confirming the ingredients. 

besides, i could really use some money. seriously. when is money going to get enough. ahahah! especially when i have my own car and paying for it every month. having less money is like having less time with your friends. 

maisha asked me to call her ASAP last night. that message somehow gave me a scare because she never been an avid person before
i called this morning while having my carwash
she told me a story that made her weep last night after she stalked someone in facebook
firstly,you should be happy because the person who is 'replacing' my place is a total .......
 this post shall be rated as G for general audiences
seriously honey, dont weep. you should be happy for me because.. first, you got me all by yourself now.
ahaahaha. i sound like a lesbian partner huh? :P secondly, you know me. you know my position. you know it because we talked about it at La Risata. LOL
and that is my favorite drink. pure vanilla. ahahha! i never know CBTL have regular customer. i always thought that only retail have these type of customer. well, my CBTL outlet sure have lots of regular customer. i know a guy who will always come every night to have his espresso. there is also a group of ladies at their 30s. a chinese couple (maybe) which the guy i found eyeing me before i work there. ahaha. so far i enjoy meeting or seeing these people because that is my passion. that is what i like to do 
meeting new people
i can conclude that i will end up trying lots of job due to my passion. hehehe. we will see. i would love to try to work with kids far as i know, i get easily annoyed with noisy kids. especially if they are crying. gezz.. i dont know if i can handle that. 

Saturday, December 22, 2012

What is your Love for?

i only blog when i have this ideas flowing in me. so today's topic will be a little bit about love. AGAIN. ahahahha. i was just wondering
have you ever felt that you've been loved for your money
honestly, i am a type of person who doesnt mind to pay if im eating with my friends. its not that i have so much money of something. i am not that rich but i just spend when i have money. so, at some point, you just feel like, people 'love' you or 'like' you just because you are nice,funny and and frank at times. or its just because you like to do the paying.
shouldnt i be not bothered?
because i just said i dont mind
i just feel like i've been loved for the wrong reason
not because i dont like my friends digging my money or something
maybe i've been asking for love by using my money. and that is why people love me for my money, and not for me. this is kinda sad but at least i know i've made a mistake and i should have my new year resolution. 

someone i've been seeing just told me he is seeing somebody else. hence he hope that nothing is going to change or anything. well, let me tell you this. lets not make me hurt you okay.. since we both know, i am going to end up hurting you or leaving you.
i'll be doing the leaving
i am sad but isnt it going to be sadder if i hurt you? 
that is what i thought
to jump in a relationship takes more than just feels right at the moment. you have to foresee if you are able to commit, able to sacrifice, able to take care of the person. tbh, i am not the type where i dont really care about what i feels
i do really care about feelings and emotions
if not,i' already have so many ex'es. for me, feelings is the most fragile thing in the world. its so easy to appear. and one cut feels like a thousand cut. i am selfish in the sense of, you love me but i dont feel the same because i can see myself hurting you in the end. 

and this is another story, its just weird someone can play with feelings so easily. its like, you have been holding on with someone just because you love the person's money or the person benefits you in many ways. you might say, you are not playing with his feelings because of some reasons, but arent you playing with yours? 

there are just so many stories in one post. i hope you get confused and yeah. forget all this crap? ahahahah

Saturday, December 8, 2012


It was a pleasant dream where you come and visit us. Is this how it feels to miss someone? I guess so. Such a nice friend where we are accustomed to your presence and all of the sudden you have to leave. hence i am dedicating this post to you :)
and i know you going somewhere to make a better life
i hope that you find it on the first try
and eventhough it kills me
that you have to go
i know it'll be sadder
if you never hit the road
so farewell!
somebody is gonna miss you
somebody is gonna wish that you were here
that somebody is..

Monday, December 3, 2012

I Choose to be Happy

somehow i've been repeating that sentence over and over again. everyday. in my head. im referring to my title. what does it really means when i said that?
i choose to be happy
well, maybe because i love DIAMONDS song so much but it is also about something that i've decided to do right now. im going to do anything that makes me happy and im not going to hold back due to any type of reasons. it can be any happiness and it can be any type of reasons. 
so yeah
we only live once
enjoy it while you can

i have relationship issues to share. well, totally not mine since i am NOT in any relationship. *coff cough* a friend of my friend, she is so into this guy but she didnt get any feedback from this fella. this is definitely pissing me off because 
we are not talking about white guys. no offence, because as far as i know, white guys reaction is kind of slow. teehee! OK! back to the story. he is a malaysian. if he doesnt reply most of your messages. again. dont waste your time honey. go date other guys. if you think he likes you and still want him to make a move, trust me, date other guys. this is just to know if he really likes you or not by looking at his reaction when you go on a date with other guys. 
if he is still not responding
the number you have dialled is not in service
i just want to say, you dont deserve to be treated like that. a nice girl like you dont deserve guys that dont care much when you care so much about him. 
yeah.falling for the wrong guy

christmas is coming soon. i hope there will be a reunion of the Quah's family except for Aunty V's family since they are living in Paris now. awwwww.. i miss the moment when daddy and uncle JB had the best turkey competition. we do miss you aunty vivien, uncle JB, anais and tea. hope you guys doing well there. we are keeping track on your beautifully-written-blog