Monday, February 21, 2011

Public Speaking

i am entering a public speaking competition, it will be on wednesday and i've been practicing my speech since saturday. its not an impromptu public speaking. thankgod. if it is, i'll be the first to chicken out. 
so the first person to listen to my speech is Sweets. pffff.. who else. LOL hes the only person who knows my title, well i've told mum my title. i dont know if she remember it or not. hehe. so i practice my speech in front of Sweets in the cafe at noon. there were little people so i wasnt so afraid to open up my voice. after finish practicing  he gave his advice to add more body language and make my ending more powerful.


i got that covered
aha! i just add my conclusion part. i hope its powerful enough to end it that way.


we spent hours in the cafe, since mercy(his car) is in the workshop. so we couldnt go out to alamanda or anywhere we wanted. usually alamanda. hehe!


i realized after having a fight with him, all i want is to spend more time with him. because both of us got hurt. and wat we need is each other company. two ways healing each other wound. 






and if u are having a fight and its the end of ur relationship, dont think of the worst things. get along with ur friends,spend more happy times with them so u wouldnt have ur mourning period alone. 

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Second Biggest Fight

another test from god to us. a fight is always ugly. when we are mad, we do things unexpectedly. we doesnt mean it.
anger can manipulate ourselves
so whenever im angry, i say things that i shouldnt say. sound cliche? yeah. but thats what happened. i cant help it.
and and.. i really really do appreciate sweets. sometimes, im focusing more on what he had turn into and neglecting the things he's trying to do. at the end i said
u dont have to back me up if it looks bad on u


i think the problem with girls(or just me), we try to think more what other girls will think of about their boyfriend. its like it will be an issue if u dont like my boyfriend. AHA! and i am more to someone's attitude because when people she who's im with, that person must have a good attitude. or good image. i have standards


i made him look bad in front of his friends
i didnt realized it because i was extremely mad and focussing more on delivering my msg to him


what i learned from this fight is

  • get a room to fight LOL
  • attitude problem is flaws. it can be reduced or prevented. we gotta accept each other flaws if we want to be together. nobody is perfect. everyone has flaws.
Sweets and i had domino's as our supper. it was after 10pm, we sit at the parking lot sidewalk. 


it sounds as if we are the street people.ahaha. but it was so darn romantic. eating pizza and the moon light shined upon us. 
even though we sit under the light pole to prevent misunderstanding since we are in campus. 
and he bought me apple twister. and lots of sagon. we ate a packet of sagon. we talked a lot. we talked about our mistakes and all. we had a great talk. and i am so happy we are cool now. let the past be the past, and the present be in the state of mind.

Friday, February 18, 2011

For The First Time (Girls Version)

He's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
He needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've got a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don't know we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard


But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

He's in line at the door with his head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard


But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
For the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby




Thursday, February 17, 2011

Total Sadness

i made my boyfriend sad
i made myself sad
now im blaming myself for the misunderstanding
screw this situation.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Blissful

what was the best moment happened last week?
to indulge the best chinese food in BANGI
thats Chan Abdullah's restaurant. the food is delicious and affordable. they served dim sum too. we've tried
kuey teow yin yong
hokkien mee or fat mee
wantan 
penang char kuey teow
those in bangi wanted to taste great kuey teow, try this place!


not celebrating V day because, well i never celebrate V day before
thats because Sweets is my first boyfie.but thats not the point, even i have him now, we are not celebrating it because thats just...i dont know. not US?
hehe


i dont need V day to know u truly love me

i dont need roses to tell ur feelings towards me

i dont need chocolates to know how sweet u are

i dont need candlelight dinner to know how romantic u are

Monday, February 7, 2011

Silent Hurt

today will be the first day i ever late for 30minutes to class but i never felt guilty
no guilt at all~~
i have reasons for my stand
1st: i thought the class starts at 845
eventhough Mior already smsed me the real time.hehe
2nd: no guilt appears in me


my thumbs are in pain because i play around with tubes in Pneumatics class on the evening. gah! i hate the tube so much.. the gripper makes my thumb painful. geezzz..


i had lunch with Sweets
i had dinner with Sweets
Lunch + Dinner + Sweets = Triple Combo Time
*super happy*




he's having his hard times now, thinking stuffs that can cause u headache. i feel scared for him too but thats not the current situation right now. what i know now, he has a Final Year Project to be done and i am confident that his project will be one of the best project of the year. hehe
gambatte
dont hurt urself Sweets, cause indirectly it hurts me too

latest moviediction
leighton meester
minka kelly
both lookalike!

Friday, February 4, 2011

When Im In Love

no chinese new year's eve gathering this year.therefore NO
roasted chicken
prawns
lobak
mixed vege
sengkuang with salads <--- yummeh!
dessert will be the chinese geng geng. AHA! i have no idea whats in english but Popo called it Geng Geng. its like a sweet soup with ginkgo and longan in it.
i've googled it and found the exact name of this Geng Geng. its Dried Longan Tea! or OR Geng Geng Tea. bwahah! im good~~ 


but today, the very first day of chinese new year, Uncle Sunny with Popo came since they are heading to Penang. we had a blast! i played twister with my cuzzy~~ we shout we laugh we sweat
we had 13 boxes of pizza
its total lunatic. AHAHAH but its cool because its seriously lunatic. LOL. we ate like we havent eat for days. my jaw went bloody tired because of the chewing. total serious shit, its so freaking tired... i lost count on how many slices of pizzas i've chucked in my tummy


Sweets is so darn afraid i might leave him because of his situation right now. maybe not afraid of me leaving, maybe he cares about me. idk. but the whole thing is all about him having a difficult time now since he has family matters yada yada yada. 
and this is all i want to say
i dont care if u dont own a car
i dont care if u cant bring me out
i just want u to be at my side when i need u
and dont cheat on me


my german friend once said to Sweets
u gotta be rich to be with Erika


i might look like a total spender but i know my limit la..hehe.. but dont think im going to leave a person just because he went broke or he lost his car or etc. when im in love, my love is real
its sounds cliche
IDGAF
yes,u heard EQ or Erika Quah saying that jiwang phrase. well, thats me. im not easily to love ppl and im not easily to fall out of love.